royalty is just grace

i do not have it together
I DO NOT HAVE IT TOGETHER
i do not have it together
i don't have to.

my heart is a wellspring
i forget this, wearing
paper-thin walls baring
self in the dead of winter.

aching, aching,
frostbite arteries
pumping icy, whoring
out until spring

when its careful touch
shows me
how i've warred through
seven months of slavery
my own shackled wrists.

my heart is a wellspring,
i have forgotten that
jewels and gold are
kept tightly in chests.

i do not have it together
i. do. not. have. it. together.
i do not have it together and
i don't have to.